question mark

currently im far far far farrrr away from home ):
sedih, freaking exhausted. lepas tuh every single thing kene buat sendiri, kene independent.
seriously, dulu that word 'independent' pun aku tataw ape meaning dye.
well now, aku kene belajar independent, sendiri. tercampak jaoh dari family & orang yang trsayang.huuu sadis x,belum sadis sangat lah. aku kurenggg paham language yang digunekn kat sini. ''dok pahee''? grr.. did i even spell it right? goshhh, aku mcm da kt oversea dahhh. haha,okayyyy balik ke topik kite yang asal ye.

bak sini aku story;question mark ny adalah.
jengg jengg, in every week i will & i have to call my emak & ayah. menangis.
boleh? aku pun tataw kenape aku ney cry baby sangat yelahh, dah manje sangat.
im daddy's lil girl okay, bile jaoh dgn ayah asyik nangis je.tu la manje xreti nk brdiri sendiri.
topik yang selalu aku bualkn & menangis adalah antaranye ;

1. ayahhhh,nurin penat sangat
2. makk pngajar kt sini sucks gile
3. ayahhh rules kt sini ketat sangat
4. makk org kt sini mean sangat
5. dan lain-lain

okayyy question markny knp aku rase semua ny xadil & selaluny jawapan aku adalah orang lain xsame dgn aku. then ayah & mak akan ckp, ape yang lain? they'll survived & so will u.

wahhh easy for everyone to say, mehh aku cakap knp aku lain.

firstly aku memang cepat penat, if brjalan which is something i love aku pun akan penat okay, bukan nk merungut.mmg betul, haa susah nk explain kepenatan aku tu memang kerap kali.
pernah sampai satu kale aku xleh jalan, then aku lain & xsame macam orang lain sebab obviously aku ney kecik. when everyone langkah setapak aku ney kene langkah 3 tapak untuk catch up dengan dyeorg, bile smue org pakai kasut saiz 4,5,6, & 7 aku ney pakai kasut size 2 je.can u imagine ? plus bile orang lain nk capai something,xpayah gune tenage pun. aku? aku? kene jinjit, kesian okayyy.
sebab tu lah nurinnnn penatttttt. bukan xbrsyukur, brsyukur sangat dgn badan & everything yang ad, cume mintak simpati yang brkenaan tu, just give us a break. aku letih kutt. memang macam ape lah. aku happy je dengan ney smue, seriously jaoh ney bwt aku lebih kenal aku sape, tapi yang xde rest tu mmg aku nk jerit sampai anak tekak aku lari wehh.

pade pihak berkenaan sile lah ad perikemanusiaan sikit, da lah kau campak aku jaohhh.
kesian taw, ney aku bwt muke cute.haishhh, aku doa & sentiase doa, bia bukakn sikit hati korg tu. lagi senang klau korg masok islam je .
senang sikit nk faham orang.
okayy?



to be continue.....

the new me

heyy korang, haha ;) sahhh xde sape follow bloq aku neyy.
yelahh dah brabad dah update kn, seriously mmg lame gile aku hilang.
ney pun aku dah dekat hujung dunie kut.
sesape yang rapat je taw an.ngehh ngehh.
after this aku akan selalu mngupdate bloq yang seberape xnk kalah ney kan.
yolahhh.
ney alarr kadar dulu.
low profile, enjin xpanas lagi.
haha
nnt da panas,bia aku bebel jeee.
tadaaaa

blogspot?

apekah? aku ney yang reti nk wt bloq,
cm hampehh je ann, bwt tp xtulis.
tuh laaa, bajet sgt.
xpe xpe,
im back on tracks, kutttt.
tp xleh nk lawan akk lerr.
dive kottt. haha ;)
aku tataw ape aku merapu,
saje nk post new bloq,
cm kosong je.
nnt ehhhhh, aku upgrade lagi.
tunggu, zasss ;)

new post ?

xde title yg best pun,
lately xmyempat nk bwt blog tapi raseny harini nk bwt blog.
rase geram. fullstop,bulan neyy bulan maut. exam trial mcm cikaii soalan semue raseny macam nk bunuh anak orang,susah gilee.bile lah spm nk habess,bosan kut asyik tension je,haishh.
da la tga tension,u know what.. i dont get some people,i mean xpaham la org neyy macam mane,
i dont knwo what they really expect from me. hari hari ade je yang xkene. kalau bwt baek orang pijak kepale,nak bwt jahat pulak aku xsampai hati kekadang. i'm just so pissed off right now.

kenape ekh aku tension ?
;exam cm cikaii
;tension pasal surrounding.
grrr...xpaham dengan orang yang fake,heyy lebih baek jadi hipokrit daripada fake,
semue orang hipokrit lahh,fake tuh cume melebih contohnya seperti

1. budak perempuan?erghh.. dye kawan dengan si A sebab fame & market. & si A pun kawan dengan dye sbb fame.bodoh kn? aku memang xde ramai kawan sebab aku susah nak trust orang,tp my friendship with my friends is definately not about 'eheemm' at all.ikhlas je
2. budak perempuan?yucks..she said that A is her bff but the truth is she keep on stabing her back?kawan selame-lameny?what daa.thats why i rather be alone than having untruster people around me.
3. budak perempuan?OMG!dye cakap dengan kawan dye,'laa kau study?bapak rajin..xpayalah study.tapi sbenarnya dye study dekat rumah.dye xnak kawan dye pandai.
4. budak perempuan?whatever..dye kuat jealous,kuat perasan yg sebenar ny nothing's going on,semuany okayokay sajee. & dye silap balas dendam.
5. semua perkare di atas sangatlah sengal,betape semua orang mementingkan duniawi.
6. orang lelaki?WTF,mane nak awek skema.likee daa,awek pakai tudung tuh semue,nak pulakk.dyeorg nk awek sexy,pkai mini skirt (fake!fake!) jadi AWEK,tapi bile da sedap,dyeorg sbenany nak perempuan soleha,pakai tudung jd bini.
7. laki tuh rampas kawan dye punye awek.
8. daaa..da bosann

i have my own mentality,so what.. aku xsuke dengan ney semue. bagos sgt ke ney semua?xsukeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

this is why we'r different

we'r different & none of us are perfect arent we?some say ur strength is ur weakness.i've found mine,& i believe u've ur own too.okayy..people often say i'm a ''bullier material'',semua pembuli tgk aku mcm nyumnyum 'yes,inilah sajian pilihan kuh bulan ini' mcm senggal.dyeorg pun ckp aku neyy penakot,err.yeahh mybe.but the thing is i'm brought up this way & thank god aku neyy mcm neyy.my parents mybe too overprotected,the truth is i'm thankful to be in this family,while every teenager having fun of their life & ruining their future,i'm sitting home bonding with my family.sometimes i wish to be one of those girls who their parent said'okayy,adik nk keluar?okayy pergi laa,mak xkesah. tp naseb lahh mak dgn ayah xmcm tuh.

lagi lagii..aku penakot,sbb tuh org selalu pijak kepale aku,hurt aku,buli aku,carik psl tp aku jugak yg kne.this is because my parents thought me to be sincere with everything i do or did,xkesah pade sape pun espcially 'the enemy'.ayah ajar bia org buat kite jgn kite buat org. everything is spinning around but its not our job to stop it & lepaskn dekat org laen?we ourselves is the punching beg,bkn surrounding.makin besar kite belajar mcm mcm,tp kite makin jaoh dgn diri kte sndri.kite ckp org FAKE,but the biggest loser is ourself,the 'wanabe'.we'r losing ourselves ,kite just xperasan je. we want & wish for everything ,but kite xpernah brsyukur ape yg kite da ade.at the end,we'r losing everything including what we already had. smue org same je di sisi tuhan (mmg skema,tp aku mmh cmney bile da dpt hidayat ;)) this morning,i open my eyes & wondering how lucky i am to stay alive & ad kesedaran.every night,before i go to sleep,aku muhasabah diri..sbb tuh aku penakot,cuz we'r different aku xpernah akn hurt org,tp org selalu hurt aku,bia lah jd penakot.aslkn aku selamat dgn tuhan,& thank god aku kenal dgn org yg baek baek ;) aku selalu nanges sbb kekdg aku xkn lepas dgn ckp or mrh,who ever read this mybe ad expression yg 'eww','yeye' gile.its okayy,its just a blog..psl aku,

people who make me strong,as much as they hurt me,they'r the best thing that ever happen in my life ;)

lastly ,my true friend's ;)

s.o.x march&cheer comp

actually this comp is awesome but somehow i'm not having fun,err mybe.
i'm not taking part in this comp,sadly to say..ayah dgn mak xbg,sbb nk spm.tp aku pergi just jd reserve je,ofcourse la sedih.sbb aku boleh msok cume nk spm je.haishhh.
pergi & balek byk gile bnde happen,at that moment rse mcm regret gile pergi kl.smueny psl vixens.,tp...
haishhh..forget bout the 'whatever part'. cerite psl yg best je.
dekat kl aku sukeeee...
1.team pirates
2.Giller battle bboy ;) salah neyy.lilo wakaka lah
3.tut';)
4.when god thought me something that open my eyes.
sbenany aku agk dissapointed dgn 'somepeople' but its okayy,u guys will never noticed it.aku simpan jelaa.

no wonder the world isnt the safest place anymore

2009,the last year of my school year,damn it..i thought everything gonna turns out the way i want it to be,sadless to say.it isnt..the suckest year for me,when my mom left us to teach at new school,honestly i was sad.but still aku okayy je sbb slalu sgt aku kene compare dgn other student sbb mak aku cikgu,well do u know how it hard for me to fit in???susah,nakal sikit xboleh,diam sgt xboleh.anything i do was mistakes to them,cikgu sigs semue judge aku sesuke hati,buli aku sesuke hati.well sometimes bkn stakat aku,mak aku pun kene reject sbb aku.jahat sgt ke aku neyy?mak aku bwt ape sehh kt dyeorg smpai kteorg kne mcmney?smpai mak aku kene pindahkn kt SAB.they think i have no clue what had happened,tp sbenany aku tawu.xsgke org yg aku slalu respect,haishh..tahh lahh,aku respect smue cikgu actually,kekdg tuh cikgu yg aku xsuke makin lame makin aku kenal,makin aku syg dye..mcm cikgu azalina,dye baek je.kekdg kteorg je nakal,sbb tuh dye mrh.tp for a certain teacher,i dont know why i hate them so bad even dyeorg tuh actually kawan mak aku,they were so mean & rude,they even sometimes dont act like a teacher suppose to be.aku igt bile mak da pindah,da xde sebok lagi psl aku,its just the same but it turn worst.aku diam kn je,tp hari neyy,aku sgt xtahan dgn cikgu cikgu neyy,for once,.pls cikgu back off,get a life,aku xkacau ank korg,so jgn kcau ank org laen.skrg neyy aku respect lg,diamkn lg,xpernah melawan or even kurang ajar dgn cikgu.but i really hope yg dyeorg sedar i'm not as bad as they think i am,mak dgn ayah pun slalu mrh aku klau aku ckp aku kecik hati dgn cikgu or kekdg gdo ngn sesape pun kt skolah,but the real things that happen is,aku xde pun nk gdo ngn sesape.org suke buli aku,bkn nk ckp ape,aku xpernah melawan,sometimes i never stand up for myself,yelaa if kene aku sorg je xpe,tp kene jugak kt mak aku nnt.
nampak mcm mrh tp aku sbenany sedih ,bayangkn lah cikgu pun mcm ney?anak murid nk jd ape sehh?
sorry cikgu tp mak byk sgt cerite psl cikgu yg kekdg aku rse knp cikgu neyy jd cikgu?
for those yg carik psl,pls pls pls..aku xde nk carik psl ngn korg or ape,i had a life & i'm living it,aku xamek taw psl sesape pun,sometimes i dont even talk to people yg aku x baek sbb aku cume trust kengkwn aku je,& aku xnk org taw psl aku,i've tried living in a shadow,susah sgt ke x jd kepoh?for once,jgn kepoh hal org laen,kite xleh tutop mulot org tp kte boleh bwt dyeorg xde ape nk ckp psl kte.tp aku da try,aku diam je..but still ade je yg nk taw,nk sibok.get a life.aku xsuke lahhh!!!