this is why we'r different

we'r different & none of us are perfect arent we?some say ur strength is ur weakness.i've found mine,& i believe u've ur own too.okayy..people often say i'm a ''bullier material'',semua pembuli tgk aku mcm nyumnyum 'yes,inilah sajian pilihan kuh bulan ini' mcm senggal.dyeorg pun ckp aku neyy penakot,err.yeahh mybe.but the thing is i'm brought up this way & thank god aku neyy mcm neyy.my parents mybe too overprotected,the truth is i'm thankful to be in this family,while every teenager having fun of their life & ruining their future,i'm sitting home bonding with my family.sometimes i wish to be one of those girls who their parent said'okayy,adik nk keluar?okayy pergi laa,mak xkesah. tp naseb lahh mak dgn ayah xmcm tuh.

lagi lagii..aku penakot,sbb tuh org selalu pijak kepale aku,hurt aku,buli aku,carik psl tp aku jugak yg kne.this is because my parents thought me to be sincere with everything i do or did,xkesah pade sape pun espcially 'the enemy'.ayah ajar bia org buat kite jgn kite buat org. everything is spinning around but its not our job to stop it & lepaskn dekat org laen?we ourselves is the punching beg,bkn surrounding.makin besar kite belajar mcm mcm,tp kite makin jaoh dgn diri kte sndri.kite ckp org FAKE,but the biggest loser is ourself,the 'wanabe'.we'r losing ourselves ,kite just xperasan je. we want & wish for everything ,but kite xpernah brsyukur ape yg kite da ade.at the end,we'r losing everything including what we already had. smue org same je di sisi tuhan (mmg skema,tp aku mmh cmney bile da dpt hidayat ;)) this morning,i open my eyes & wondering how lucky i am to stay alive & ad kesedaran.every night,before i go to sleep,aku muhasabah diri..sbb tuh aku penakot,cuz we'r different aku xpernah akn hurt org,tp org selalu hurt aku,bia lah jd penakot.aslkn aku selamat dgn tuhan,& thank god aku kenal dgn org yg baek baek ;) aku selalu nanges sbb kekdg aku xkn lepas dgn ckp or mrh,who ever read this mybe ad expression yg 'eww','yeye' gile.its okayy,its just a blog..psl aku,

people who make me strong,as much as they hurt me,they'r the best thing that ever happen in my life ;)

lastly ,my true friend's ;)

s.o.x march&cheer comp

actually this comp is awesome but somehow i'm not having fun,err mybe.
i'm not taking part in this comp,sadly to say..ayah dgn mak xbg,sbb nk spm.tp aku pergi just jd reserve je,ofcourse la sedih.sbb aku boleh msok cume nk spm je.haishhh.
pergi & balek byk gile bnde happen,at that moment rse mcm regret gile pergi kl.smueny psl vixens.,tp...
haishhh..forget bout the 'whatever part'. cerite psl yg best je.
dekat kl aku sukeeee...
1.team pirates
2.Giller battle bboy ;) salah neyy.lilo wakaka lah
3.tut';)
4.when god thought me something that open my eyes.
sbenany aku agk dissapointed dgn 'somepeople' but its okayy,u guys will never noticed it.aku simpan jelaa.

no wonder the world isnt the safest place anymore

2009,the last year of my school year,damn it..i thought everything gonna turns out the way i want it to be,sadless to say.it isnt..the suckest year for me,when my mom left us to teach at new school,honestly i was sad.but still aku okayy je sbb slalu sgt aku kene compare dgn other student sbb mak aku cikgu,well do u know how it hard for me to fit in???susah,nakal sikit xboleh,diam sgt xboleh.anything i do was mistakes to them,cikgu sigs semue judge aku sesuke hati,buli aku sesuke hati.well sometimes bkn stakat aku,mak aku pun kene reject sbb aku.jahat sgt ke aku neyy?mak aku bwt ape sehh kt dyeorg smpai kteorg kne mcmney?smpai mak aku kene pindahkn kt SAB.they think i have no clue what had happened,tp sbenany aku tawu.xsgke org yg aku slalu respect,haishh..tahh lahh,aku respect smue cikgu actually,kekdg tuh cikgu yg aku xsuke makin lame makin aku kenal,makin aku syg dye..mcm cikgu azalina,dye baek je.kekdg kteorg je nakal,sbb tuh dye mrh.tp for a certain teacher,i dont know why i hate them so bad even dyeorg tuh actually kawan mak aku,they were so mean & rude,they even sometimes dont act like a teacher suppose to be.aku igt bile mak da pindah,da xde sebok lagi psl aku,its just the same but it turn worst.aku diam kn je,tp hari neyy,aku sgt xtahan dgn cikgu cikgu neyy,for once,.pls cikgu back off,get a life,aku xkacau ank korg,so jgn kcau ank org laen.skrg neyy aku respect lg,diamkn lg,xpernah melawan or even kurang ajar dgn cikgu.but i really hope yg dyeorg sedar i'm not as bad as they think i am,mak dgn ayah pun slalu mrh aku klau aku ckp aku kecik hati dgn cikgu or kekdg gdo ngn sesape pun kt skolah,but the real things that happen is,aku xde pun nk gdo ngn sesape.org suke buli aku,bkn nk ckp ape,aku xpernah melawan,sometimes i never stand up for myself,yelaa if kene aku sorg je xpe,tp kene jugak kt mak aku nnt.
nampak mcm mrh tp aku sbenany sedih ,bayangkn lah cikgu pun mcm ney?anak murid nk jd ape sehh?
sorry cikgu tp mak byk sgt cerite psl cikgu yg kekdg aku rse knp cikgu neyy jd cikgu?
for those yg carik psl,pls pls pls..aku xde nk carik psl ngn korg or ape,i had a life & i'm living it,aku xamek taw psl sesape pun,sometimes i dont even talk to people yg aku x baek sbb aku cume trust kengkwn aku je,& aku xnk org taw psl aku,i've tried living in a shadow,susah sgt ke x jd kepoh?for once,jgn kepoh hal org laen,kite xleh tutop mulot org tp kte boleh bwt dyeorg xde ape nk ckp psl kte.tp aku da try,aku diam je..but still ade je yg nk taw,nk sibok.get a life.aku xsuke lahhh!!!

we used to be friend's

dedicated the title to ehemm & ehemm ,well actually byk sgt ehemm. firstly,we used to be friends dekat kawan aku yg da lame kawan & now we're sort of not being friends anymore.sbbny everyones change,aku da laen korg pun da laen.da besar kn?kau ckp aku da laen,mmg da laen la hunn.kau pun cermin diri sndri,u'r not u.my old friend..da ade kawan baru,lupe kawan lame,ye dulu aku minat tarian skg aku busy dgn cheer,i'm not blaming u when i quit tarian tp sorry we used to be the bestest friend in the whole world tp everythings change,nmpk kau pun rase mcm da xpernah kenal lngsong,kite bkn enemy tp da xboleh mcm dulu lg okayy? lagi.. cheer?cheer mmg la best,tp bile dgn kawan psl cheer cm hampehh,hidup jadi cm cikaii,i love all my teamates including some of FB,well skg vixens lahh.but i'll never forget FB,dyeorg pun best juga.

lagi..we used to be friend's,me & this ehem who i cannot mention his name,the closest friend i ever had,i told him my secret he told his.alomost everything.we've been friend since kindergarten.honestly i love him as a friend.well skg da xde pape.our friendship end just like that,dr skola ec pindah mrsm.i miss everyone whom i used to be friends with,actually i'm missing everyone whom used to be around me.rindu sgt... xpernah lupe,sometimes nmpk korg punye ms,nk tego tp malu,kekdg dga story dr kawan yg laen best sgt dpt taw atleast sikit psl korg.
ehhh,sbenany bkn yg kt ats neyy je.. ade lg lahh yg aku rindu,nk mention name ke?
ehh..errr,alaaa xpela..malu ahhh.yg pntng aku xpernah lupe korg,but for those who used to be my friend & end up on my hater list,sorry lahh aku xnk korg hidup je sbenany.but no worries,xsemua lahh.

imy.